I used to be a primary school teacher then I had a baby and my priorities completely changed.  I didn’t go back to teaching.  I stayed home with my fast expanding family and soon there were six of us.

In between this time I had anxiety and was post natal.  

In the mix of juggling my own feelings I also wasn’t too sure who I was anymore either.  I knew I was a mum but who was I?  Looking back I had lost a big part of my identity.  I also felt that I had let down my five year old self sitting in front of my imaginary assemblies dreaming of being a teacher.  I was grieving a loss.

I became interested in Neuroscience and our neurological ability to recover using interventions and practices.  I knew therapy would also help but I remember keeping my silence for years afraid of what others would think, if I would be judged, if I could afford it.  When I did finally have therapy I remember feeling sad that I had not started sooner.  That I allowed my ‘what ifs’ that were in my thoughts to dictate my reality.  Those ‘what if’s’ that I had spent so long spinning in my head never even happened.

Knowing more about myself and liking myself feels incredible and at the time I never thought would happen.  Standing in front of the mirror for long periods of time feeling comfortable in myself has been releasing.  Cheering myself on and quietening the critical inner voice has been a game changer.  The list goes on.

If I could speak to my younger self trying to carry a lot and keep going I would gently tell her to try therapy.  To put aside the ‘what ifs’ that are spinning in my younger self’s head and tell her that they shouldn’t dictate my life.  

I would agree with her that while starting therapy will feel hard, choosing to go will offer a safe space and a place to feel heard. I would tell my younger self to give therapy a go and see how I feel.

So I encourage you to consider going.  To try to put the ‘what if’s’ that you may have circling in your head and to give therapy a go.  

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